I am what I am…

March 25, 2013 § Leave a comment

1 Corinthians 15:10 – But by the grace of God I am what I am: and his grace which [was bestowed] upon me was not in vain; but I laboured more abundantly than they all: yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me.

I was browsing at King James Bible Online looking for scriptures on gratitude, and came across the one above. It really spoke to me, and caused me to stop and really think about its meaning in my life.

Grace in common parlance means a gift, undeserved. A lot hinges on my remembering that every single thing I see, do, or experience is an unmerited gift. Every breath I take into my lungs is a gift from God. It is difficult for me to remember this, or at least keep it in the forefront of my mind. It is easier to forget my place, and what really matters in life. I can get so caught up in the moment, that I forget nearly everything else.

Many times I don’t remember that who I am, and what I am is a gift from God. I lament who I am, and the decisions I’ve made and am never really happy with who I am (most of the time). I am so thankful that I read this scripture today.

The conclusion of the scripture is so powerful. It speaks volumes to me about my place and having gratitude for God’s grace within me and permeating my life. It is such a wonderful feeling to know that God’s grace is with me in all my troubles and successes. I don’t have to feel alone when I lose my place and think I am fighting this in this life by myself.

I hope you too can find God’s grace in your life. I hope you can see that any situation you find yourself in is a gift from God. No matter how distasteful or painful, it is a gift with blessings, though they may not be as apparent as we’d like.

God bless you…


Quick intro on situation in Cyprus

March 20, 2013 § Leave a comment

There is a song covered by “The Devil Makes Three” called “Working Man’s Blues”. This song is an older Americana/Folk song that really speaks of the conditions we are living in today. Take a listen:


It is only going to get worse. We now have bankers publically looting the public’s funds. What kind of messed up nonsense is this? How much longer do we have until behavior like this a little closer to home?
How will this affect the global economy, as we are all interconnected, and somewhat interdependent?
Here is a nice link explaining the banking crisis in Cyprus, but this isn’t isolated to only Cyprus, as shown here. New Zealand is planning a similar operation!
Even in the U.S. the looting has begun. It won’t take much longer, in many people’s opinion until we see a major, painful, and prolonged financial collapse in America. The conditions are right, it is only a matter of time.

What Lack I Yet?

March 19, 2013 § 2 Comments

I didn’t have my Bible with me today, and wanted to do some Bible study, so I went to the Bible Gateway website. I knew approximately where I was in my reading, so I tried to find it. I’d skimmed over a few verses closest to where I was last and my eyes fell upon a set of verses that I’d read on my last Bible study, but the words had a greater impression on me this time. I wanted to share it here, hoping that “vocalizing” my thoughts I might understand them better. First, here are the verses I mentioned:

16 And, behold, one came and said unto him, Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life?

17 And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments.

18 He saith unto him, Which? Jesus said, Thou shalt do no murder, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness,

19 Honour thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

20 The young man saith unto him, All these things have I kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?

21 Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me.

22 But when the young man heard that saying, he went away sorrowful: for he had great possessions.

There are so many parts to this, but I want to focus on only a couple. First the title of this post “What lack I yet?” This fellow speaking with Jesus thought he was a good person and kept the Mosaic Law; shouldn’t this be enough (works salvation)?

Jesus’ response is very well known and there is very little confusion as to what he meant. Jesus knew this man had a love in his heart for something other than God. This man loved the wealth and riches he had. Jesus told him that he would have to leave it all behind if he wanted to follow God with his whole heart.

The Bible may be vague, ambiguous, and open to interpretation on many topics, but money, wealth, riches…not so much. The Bible makes it clear on many occasions how we are to feel about the accumulation of wealth (1 Tim. 6:10, Luke 18:22, Luke 12:33, etc.).

I feel that this applies to my entire life, and why shouldn’t it? I took a long hard look at my life, and realized that I am living on a hamster wheel. I work all day, and at the end of the day, I am no further ahead than I was when I started. That is pitiful and ridiculous.

In fact, I’d say the way we all operate as a society is setup and engineered in such a way, that we are all shackled to a grid existence. We wake up in our little sub grid (neighborhood) and using electricity, water, and gas that are more grids. We drive along a grid to get to work, where we support and facilitate more sub grids being built, manufactured, developed, and maintained. We get home and watch a television that is connected to an invisible grid. We live our lives in a programmed manner with very little variance in thought, and absolutely no freedom whatsoever to explore our relationship with God.

We have so many obligations because of this rigid grid we’ve voluntarily put ourselves in. Every single one of these obligations demand time and thought that could be spent growing closer to God and one another. Instead we work harder in order to have so many distractions; it’s almost as if we don’t want to have more time to spend with God; or each other for that matter.

One of my last posts was about a symbolic divorce my wife and I are going through. We are divorcing ourselves from the shackles of money. We are raiding our 401K and selling our possessions. We recognize the need to tear these obstacles and distractions from our lives, and live a simpler existence.

The Bible was written in much simpler times. That doesn’t mean that its principles can’t apply today. What do you think Jesus would say about the cars we drive, or the houses we live in? I really think that Jesus was quite serious about his allegory regarding money.

If we could all divorce ourselves from the trinkets, and flashy gadgets that inundate our lives, we could rise up from our bended knee and stop being slaves to the synagogue of Satan. We would have a better understanding of ourselves and our fellow man. We would have more time to explore our relationship with God, and teach the following generations to live a simpler life closer to God.

My wife and I are going to divorce…

March 15, 2013 § 3 Comments

When you read the title of this post, you may feel a little saddened to think that another married couple has thrown in the towel. Don’t be sad! Our love for each other is so deep that it can withstand nearly anything. What I am referring to in the title of this post is a divorce from this world; this system of things we find ourselves in.

The word divorce is usually meant as a legal end to marriage. However, it is also defined as a separation:

: the action or an instance of legally dissolving a marriage
:separation, severance <divorce of the secular and the spiritual>
In this sense, my wife and I are separating ourselves from this world. We don’t find the arranged marriage to be to our taste. I’m talking about the arranged marriage of dependence on the dollar. My wife and I were forced to marry this beast who doesn’t love us, who doesn’t care for our best interests, and who never even acknowledges our existence.
This marriage and it is a marriage, was yoked upon us against our will, and without our knowledge or consent. We have had enough. We’ve already put the wheels in motion to end this Stockholm syndrome reliance on the dollar.
I’ve said in a previous post, that we as a society are where we are because we have allowed the adoration of money to be the driving factor in our lives, and have forgotten how to do anything without it.
We are having a difficult time getting our heads unwound from the web of chains that hold us down. We’ve been conditioned from an early age to think of the chains that bind us as a natural occurrence, one we are powerless to rid ourselves of. It is difficult to live without money, or so we’ve been led to believe.
With faith in God, we are hammering away at the shackles that anchor us to this spot, and very soon we hope to escape in the night, to a closer understanding of God, His creation, and ourselves.

There’s a storm coming…

March 14, 2013 § 2 Comments

I think it is time to go. I really don’t know how much more God wants me to witness before he expects me to leave. There is a storm on the horizon, and anyone who sees such a storm would do well to move out of its path.

Things in America, and the Western world are quickly deteriorating, and I worry about the safety of my family. I’ve been filled with a inexplicable burning desire to move from where I am now. I feel that God is planting this desire in me in order to protect me and my family.

I pray every day for God to grant me the foresight to protect and provide for my family. There are so many dangers in the world today and it only seems to be getting worse.

I realize this post doesn’t follow the standard voice of my other posts, and seems rather erratic. This is something I’ve been considering for quite some time. My wife and I are fully ready to pack up what we can and move from any urban area to a relatively safer place.

The only real question is where to go. I am not a land owner, and therefore have many apprehensions and insecurities about leaving the comfort and familiarity of where we are. I must keep reminding myself, Jehovah-Jireh (God will provide). However, this is easier said than done.

I need some help from my readers. I am facing a small crisis, and need some spiritual advice, or comfort. I am torn between my corporeal self and my spiritual self.; I am having difficulty letting go of the dreams and goals of a husband, a father, and a human and turning to what my spiritual self is being driven to. I can easily justify in the short term, but it is difficult for me to predict how I can sustain my family’s needs in the long term. Can any of you provide any scriptural guidance?

Except ye be converted…

March 11, 2013 § Leave a comment

This morning in Bible study, I read the beginning of Matthew 18. It is a verse (or series of verses) that we all know, but struck a resonant chord within me.

Here is the passage:

And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me.

But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.

These relatively few verses spoke to me in a very profound way. I couldn’t read past them, I just kept on reading them over and over. After reading them and meditating on them for a time, I ‘d like to express the conclusion(s) I came to and hopefully start a discussion on the topic(s) surrounding these verses.

In today’s world, Christianity is being attacked on all sides. Some who claim to be rationalists try to dissuade Christian thought using (il)logic. One prime example of this is the repeated trend in contemporary times to prove or disprove God’s existence. Many people fall prey and have their faith shaken due to the seeming foolproof nature of science.

I understand the verses to be quite literal. Think of it. Christianity, isn’t a difficult concept, nor are its tenets. Children don’t need lengthy dissertations that are cryptic and overly complex. We speak to children in simple terms, just as Jesus spoke to us while on earth. The Holy Spirit inspired the writers of the Bible to speak in simple terms; so why are the roadblocks to God always so complex? They don’t have to be, nor should they be.

When Moses came down from the mountain, the impatient people were  worshiping a false idol. Today, we are waiting on tangible evidence, or fancy wordplay and succumb to worshiping the new golden idol: science. We need to be patient, develop the right soil, and like the mustard seed, our faith will grow strong…in time. Too many times, we try to plant the seeds in rocky soil, and the light of rationalism creeps in and withers our faith. We cannot allow this to happen! We need to first work to expose the rocks (and thorns too!), and remove them from our hearts; some will be easier than others. Only then, can the seeds hope to gain root and grow strong.

Satan did the same thing in Garden of Eden, he promised them they would be like god, with knowledge of good and evil. This is similar to science today. We are striving after knowledge, in a pursuit to disprove God’s existence, all the while thinking of ourselves as Gods ourselves.

One last point I’d like to make is that we don’t want to just be as children in matters of faith only. The word “converted” mentioned in verse 3 means “to turn, turn around” (source). This implies that we are to become as children, in all parts of our lives, not overly complicating matters. All matters are simple matters when God is involved.

God bless you!

Molesters and Murderers Welcome in Colorado!!

March 7, 2013 § Leave a comment


I can’t wait until we have even more citizen disarmament gun free zones!